I rather think I'm probably taking matching up people in the ficathon far too seriously. xDDD I have complicated charts drawn up! >D /dork dork dork

But after ~3/4 hours of work I think I'm finally mostly satisfied! xDDD WAHOOO *CELEBRATES*

Title: Midst of War
Rating: PG-13/T
Word Count: 191
Warnings: implication of sex, a naked chest
Characters: Ukitake, Ichigo, Renji, Kiyone
Pairing: Renji/Ichigo
Notes: This was written at like 11:30 last night while I was falling asleep in bed. At least some of my muse has come back? *pokes springkink prompts*
Dedication: This little drabble is for my two most favorite people in all the world, cmc42and spikykun. ILU my silly RenIchi fans. <3

( One quiet night )

So I'm not sure if I mentioned this on an entry or not- I know I mentioned it to some people over IM- but my grandfather has been visiting this weekend. This is the husband of my grandma that died a little while ago. It was his birthday Friday so we invited him up here so he wouldn't be lonely. He hasn't been up here in at least two years; my grandma hasn't been well enough to make the trip (~6/7 hours driving).

The visit has been pretty good so far. He's a bit, uh, talkative and longwinded, but. xD He's always been that way, though I think its gotten worse lately. I guess he doesn't have anyone at home to talk to anymore, so its understandable. Doesn't make it less irritating.

Today we took an afternoon trip up to Dahlonega because he wanted to see the fall colors and walk around the town. So that was nice; I hadn't been up there in a while. :)

As far as fandom stuff goes, it's really pathetic how far behind I am on springkink stuff. Muse, come back? I love yooooou. *pleeeeads* Ah well. I'm determined to write something, even if its like 20 days late. O_O xD;;

The sign-ups for the ficathon I'm running over at shun_uki runs out tonight, and after I posted a reminder post I got two more people signing up. : D So that makes 7 people! 8 if you count me >D;; Still, if there's anyone else on the flist that'd like to sign up, you so should. :) Fics aren't due 'til last week of January.

(Also, I've figured out why there are so little ShunUki AU fics compared to other ships xD Writers for ShunUki tend to not like them. No idea why. But more than half the people signed up for the ficathon have specifically said they don't like AUs. D: Made me sad. xDD; Ah well.)

I'm beginning to think that that saying about bad things coming in threes has some merit to it... T___T The last few weeks have been not so great for me.

Stayed home from most of class today and yesterday because I was feeling sick. Absolutely no idea what caused it. It seems to be really bad during the morning (it's a stomach thing) and clear up by the evening/night, so even though I feel fine now, who knows what it'll be like tommorow morning? =/ I guess we'll see. On the other hand, boy am I glad I seem fine during the evening because I had a calculus test in the evening today. I actually think I did better than I expected to do... I think I may've actually passed. xD;;; And that's with showing up fifteen minutes late because its completely pouring and the highways were all backed up. >_>

Maybe now that all that a lot of my Calculus stuff is over with for the moment, I can get to work on my springkink stuff. I'm already late with two fics. T____T I've pretty much given up on NaNo. Been way too busy (I had a calc project due last week) and my writing muse completely refuses to come when I'm feeling sick. So... at least the two springkink prompts I have to do I have vague ideas for. I'll start working on them tommorow.

Mmmm, I can't think of anything else I wanted to say, so I'm just going to pimp the ficathon. I'm running a ShunUki ficathon over at shun_uki. For rules and explanation of a ficathon, go here (its basically a fic swap). For the actual sign-ups, go here. Originally the sign-ups were going to be due tommorow, but since only two people have signed up so far and neither of them were any of the people who told me originally they'd do it... the signups will probably be extended until the weekend.

Sh-Shannon.

I didn't know you half as well as I know a lot of people on my flist did, or half as well as I would have liked to, but you were always amazingly sweet and awesome to me. Your entries rarely failed to bring a smile to my face, and you were one of the bravest people I know. I'm sure you're in a better place now, and not in any pain anymore. But you will be missed. Very much.

Massive hugs and love to everyone on my flist who knew her, especially prof_ryoki.

Blergh. I have no idea what I'm going to do about NaNoWriMo. I really really want to do it and participate with everyone, buuut... my springkink prompts are soooo not done. And they won't be done by the first (lol Sunday). So I'm not quite sure what to do. D:

Also, I'm in the middle of poking around photoshop and I've realized I have, like, no screencaps of the main characters. xD I have plenty of screencaps of all the side characters, but Ichigo, Rukia, Renji? Like 3 of each. xD There's just too many to choose from. Anyway, does anyone have a screencap that has Ichigo, Rukia, and Renji in it? And they're just standing there together, not fighting or anything. Something together-y. xD

Also, any depressed/scared Orihimes?

YOU GUYS YOU GUYS YOU GUYS

CMC42 BOUGHT ME A FULL YEAR OF PAID ACCOUNT FOR MY BIRTHDAY.

I AM SO EXCITED LIKE YOU HAVE NO IDEA.

ZOMG.

*DIES*

Well, I'm back, obviously, if you saw my spoiler post this morning. I'm still alive! xD The weekend events went okay, I guess. Everyone seemed to be very pleased with the service, so even though I myself was only 'meh' about it, I suppose that went well (as well as can be expected for a funeral, anyway, lol). I was seated next to my mom, though, and my little brother was on her other side, so I was the one in the comforting role as expected. I got pulled aside after by my grandma's brother (who sat in the row behind us), who told me that seeing me with my arm around my mom was really great and etc etc. His grandson was like *thumbs up* yeah that was really great of you! So... I guess I did okay. ^___^

I don't regret staying up- TIL FOUR- late on Thursday getting the slideshow done, since they loved it to pieces and we watched it three times. My uncle told me I made a big contribution there, and made it a more happy occasion. Which I understand, even if it made a lot of people cry. It was all pictures of her being happy and happy times and etc. So yeah. I feel like I helped out, which makes me feel really good. I still haven't cried, though, which I find strange, but... *shrugs* Maybe I was right when I said I already did my grieving. Plus as I was told numerous times on my last entries- we all grieve in different ways. So... whatever. It's okay. :)

It was still hard, though, leaving my grandpa there when we left. We were the last to leave, and it would have been the first  time he was ALONE in their house after she died. So T___T. But hopefully he'll be okay... he's still healthy... =/ We'll see, I guess.

On to other things... this week looks like its going to be busy, but good. Busy because I have a decent amount of schoolwork and meetings I need to go to, but Thursday is my birthday, and I've already gotten awesome pressies from my darlings spikykun and cmc42. :D Go check them out~

Is it sad that my mom told me yesterday that the family only has one present for me because mom was away all week, and... I wasn't even sad? Because I treasure fandom stuff over anything they'd give me. xD;;;;;;;; Fail, Rae, fail.

Ah, I should really be off to class (CALCULUS DDD: ) now, I guess.

But- *prods ff.net story* Author, you are NOT AT ALL going to endear your OC to me by having her be a good friend of Ukitake but decide not to tell him your ~secret~ because YOU THINK HE'S FRAIL. I'LL GIVE YOU FRAIL.

Ahem. *wanders off*

*collapses on her flist* Ow. I'm so exhausted. And I'm not even in Florida yet. I guess that's what I get for being something of the tech expert in our family. >_> I'm in charge of 1) making a mixed CD, 2) the one that's taking me forever- a gigantic powerpoint picture slideshow thingy. I spent hours last night, this morning, and this afternoon going through tons of old picture albums and then scanning all ~70 picture into the computer. Well, actually I'm not done with that yet. Have to continue when I get home- I'm popping in now at the college because I know I'll not be able to get on once I get home. I also need to pack tonight. >____> Oh yeah oh yeah, and then of course today was the day we had a School Meeting, and also a day I have my evening Calculus class. Arghhhhh, I had no idea what was going on in there today.

ANYWAY. I've been stressed and really busy, so I'm really sorry for not responding to all of your lovely, lovely comments. I love you all, really. ♥

After this, I probably won't have a chance to respond to anything until Monday, though I may have enough time to check emails (just not answer). So... sort of an hiatus?

On the other hand, I may make time to make an entry late at night, depending on how it goes and whether I need to rant. xD;;;

Anyway, I'm going to stfu now. My brain is way to fried for me to write an entry... blah.

(I'm thinking about getting no sleep and trying to post a fic later tonight, just so I could come back to comments. xD; We'll see how that goes............ )

That meme brought back memories of old fandoms, and I ventured back to my old account and read some of the old stories that I'd written there. xD; Needless to say, that amused me. The writing itself was actually halfway decent- I wasn't sure whether to be proud that I wrote that well at, like, twelve, or horrified that I haven't improved that much since then. xDD;; On the other hand... SO improved with plot. Half-elves and Mary Sue and character/OC fics galore. Fail, Rae, fail. On the other hand, the stories were a whole lot longer than anything I've managed to spit out recently, so... D:

Now, on to serious things. My grandmother died last night- about two o'clock in the morning, I've been told. =/ I'm not upset... I knew it was coming... but just meh. Mom's really upset, as I knew she would be. I can't even imagine how Grandpa is... I ranted about how in denial he was about how bad her condition was when I was down therea week ago, but now I just feel bad about it. =/ Anyway, the funeral and service is this weekend, and so we'll be driving down Friday morning. Well, my dad, my brother, and I will be, mom is flying down tommorow to help with everything.

I'm going to try to make this not that whiney and insensitive, but I'll probably fail. I have a question. What have you guys done, like... before and after funerals? Mom says we're going to sit around my grandparent's house for like two/three days and have 'family time'. As in... sitting around all day. As in I've already been lecture on NO CELLPHONE NO MUSIC NO COMPUTERS EVER AT ALL.

I'm trying not to be whiney, but... that is so not my thing. At all. I don't understand it. That just... doesn't sound like any kind of help at all to me. But then, I'm not a people person. It's certainly not going to help me feel any better; probably just make me more pissy and upset. /fails at socializing

I mean, I'll do without complaint it because it'll probably make my grandfather feel better, but... I don't get it. *shrugs* Ah, whatever. I'll somehow manage to struggle through, heh. >____>

And somehow you guys will have to survive the weekend without my wonderful presense. :p

Because I promised shynishshallow that I would spam her flist people that I would start posting more, have a meme I always wanted to do. xD

Comment with a fandom and I'll tell you-

1. The first character I fell in love with:
2. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now:
3. The character everyone else loves that I don’t:
4. The character I love that everyone else hates:
5. The character I would shag anytime:
6. The character I'd want to be like:
7. The character I'd slap:
8. A pairing that I love:
9. A pairing that I despise:
10. Favorite character:
11. What are my five favorite things about the fandom?
12. What are my five least favorite things about the fandom?
13. Who are my five favorite characters?
14. Who are my five least favorite characters?
15. What are my five favorite pairings?
16. What are my five least favorite pairings?
17. Which character you are most like?
18. What is my deep, dark fandom secret?

Fandoms I could probably manage are... Bleach, Death Note, Inuyasha, Dresden Files, Lord of the Rings, Stargate Atlantis, Harry Potter, Magic Knight Rayearth, Star Trek (new & old), NCIS, the Mummy movies, Good Omens,  Yu Yu Hakusho, Yu-Gi-Oh.

*raises hand* I have a question. Why are there 23095823948203984 Alternate Universe Shunsui/Nanao fics, but, like, 3 Alternate Universe Shunsui/Ukitake fics? *sulks forever* THIS WILL CHANGE, I SAY.

Also, you know that I am getting really, really desperate for ShunUki fic when I am waiting eagerly for this to update.

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yeah.

ANYWAY. Time for a who comments the most thingy, as I haven't done one of those in months and... I have no idea who'll be at the top now. Last couple times it was Vraie, winterfeelings, and margerydaw, but vraie and winterfeelings really haven't commented in the last couple months, so... who the heck knows? xD;

( Who comments the most on this journal? )


On the subject of my last entry- so far no more news; she's still alive. *crosses fingers* Thanks to everyone. <3 I love you guys.

ETA: Link fixed. xD;;

( rambling angst found within )

On the other, less angsty and td;lr note, I spent all day stalking various rpgs. >_> I really need to get off my ass and app one. Or two. >D;;; But... Um, I know there are several RP-wise people on my flist, and uh... would any of you mind holding my hand and helping me figure out what the hell I'm doing? Help me figure out what backstory would make the most sense? With the second one, I'm mostly referring to long_live_rpg. xD;; 

I swore up an down to spikykunand cmc42 that I would write IchiRen, RenBya, or IchiBya during my vacation.

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I think I managed to finish the first chapter of my Ukitake/Shunsui/Shinji fic.

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*FACEPALM*

At least I have one more day of vacation. xD

MINI-HIATUS for the weekend. I'm going down to my grandparent's house, and there's a very good chance that their internet is still not working. They have other things to worry about at the moment. =/

*waves*

As always, I'll have AIM on mobile, so you can still poke me there. :) I still haven't managed to get msn working on there, though. Sorry!

♥

There are... definitely parts of this that are a little rough. Unfortunately, I am totally out of time. xD Oh well. At least I got it in~

Written for the fic contest over at senkaimon. This round was Byakuya/Renji.

Title: Sand
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 2,143
Warnings: blood, injuries, mention of character death, Byakuya being screwed up
Characters: Byakuya, Renji, Shunsui, Yamamoto, mentions of pretty much everyone else
Pairing: Byakuya/Renji, maybe a small bit of Shunsui/Ukitake surprise!
A/N: aksjd;asdfjk I'm really not sure where this came from. This is totally different from everyone else's, but I think we all know my brain is weird by now, right? xD; This is definitely my most depressing piece so far... I'll be interested to see what people make of it. I can't decide whether I like it or not.

( The sand cares for nothing. )